sharing is just such a struggle,
so much easier to be in a bubble.
you think you know me but you really don't,
you've never ever been to my level.

secrets within, a chest in the heart,
slowly revealed, part by part.
a jigsaw of emotions and fears,
jumbled in the minds of those so dear.

don't try to pry, you won't succeed,
they're covered with layers of choking mist.
the past, the present, the future alike,
do you really want to know the story of her life?

the silence will be broken in time to come,
can you really accept the things she's done?
prepare your heart, prepare your mind,
cause at this point, i know you can't.

some things are better left unsaid.

cheers!

have you ever tried googling yourself? it's quite amusing really. i recently found out that some people actually google-searched my name and got to my blog from there. so well, i wanted to find out what they found...

hmmm amazingly, alot of my canoeing records show. and what do you know, my blog isn't even in the top 7! LOL. maybe you should try googling yourself sometime. haha. see what you'll find!

(this is my first time using the print screen function! i always thought it was spoilt! LOL.)

haha. this ends my less than substantial post.

in other news, it's getting kinda creepy, a little too close for comfort.

cheers.

browsing through my old poetry books, i realise how far i've come and how much today's sermon made sense. indeed life's a journey with many stages, and lessons to be learnt from them. i look back now and after learning those lessons, i wonder why i even felt so much over so little. i wonder why i even got so worked up over something so small. it's a lesson learnt, one that need not be repeated.

i've finally past that stage after 5 long years.. definitely learnt a lesson i'll never forget. went through much more than i bargained for, but i know that it's all part of the plan. i may have circled for a little longer than i should've, but at least it's over now. thank You, for bringing me out!

& while we continue kissing frogs, remember never to marry one! don't be complacent and contented with anything that's not worthy of your destiny. be patient, and never lose hope. the prince will come eventually. (:

we're called, to be an example to believers... in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity.. spoken many times, confessed many times, but is it really acted out? ask yourself.

when's the last time you soaked up the word of God, received fresh revelation and just got so glued you didn't wanna stop reading?

when's the last time you seeked knowledge and earnestly wanted to know more about God?

have you been accountable to your leaders?

are all your relationships on the right track?

are you constantly growing in love for God and for people?

are you compassionate?

are you sensitive to the Holy Spirit?

did you pray in the spirit more today than you did yesterday?

have you been recharging your faith, seeing that faith leaks?

have you stepped out and done something radical for Him?

are you leading a life that's pure?

are your thoughts and actions all birthed forth from nothing but pure thoughts- to bring good and not evil?

gotta do some reflecting!

read this from phil pringle's inspired to pray. "We need to keep praying for people after thay have been saved with the same intensity as we did for them to get them saved."

gotta up the intensity!

cheers!

OPM was awesome.

the words we say really have POWER. make sure we say positive things, make sure we PRAY.

God is ready to act NOW. are you?

tear down & ROOT out, build & plant.

yank those roots out. don't just cut the stem or pluck the leaves, yank out the roots!

to grow in worship, discipleship, fellowship, ministry & evangelism.

777. we can do it!

thank You, i needed that.

cheers.

between kevin & me, when we were about to sleep.

me: hi kevin can you switch off the light?

kevin: hi chris, no

me: meh

kevin: moo

and we both fell asleep. HAHAHA.

*kevin is my cousin*

cheers.

random bullet blogging cos i'm so tired.

• so i've skipped a whole week of school. i now know how relaxed school life is. this week has been crazy. tiring and draining to say the least. i'm supposed to be having my counselling psychology test right now, but i'm on LOA.
• opm soon, really tired.. my spirit is just so provoked. like argh. i just feel like screaming from within. you wonder if 'family' is the right word to describe the bond. actions don't match the description.
• people not being sensitive really irks me. where's the discernment?!
• i think the lack of sleep is getting to me. i've been on 'night duty' the past 3 nights so i've not slept well at all. just a couple of hours here and there. top that off with drowsy medicine. haha. i'm sorry if i'm overly cranky.
• your word is your bond. hate it when people give their word and then go back on it. word value depreciation.
• tomorrow will be a better day, so they say. looking forward to uninterrupted REST.
• the bed's all mine again (: feels good.

cheers.

i have been MIA-ing from school and everything else but with a valid reason of course. something happened.

anyway, i am dead tired. haven't caught a wink of sleep since 01.02.10, at 10am. i've been running around doing errands. and stayed up last night too. wrote a song with kevin and mel. they are both crashing right now. kevin's on my bed and mel's on the sofa. i'm just waiting for my bed to be cleared so i can sleep! haha. we tried squeezing on my really small queen-sized bed but failed. hahaha. we'd probably wake up with a whole lot of injuries. hahaha.

well, i'm on a 2 day MC.. saw the doctor.. she said that i've got throat infection, voice box infection and tonsilitis. lol. her advice? don't talk so much.. haha! well thank God the medicine's been working like a charm even though i haven't been taking the drowsy ones cos i couldn't sleep!

this week will be a really tiring week. tonight round 2. wed round 3. thur OPM?

need to rest on fri as much as possible! :x

i'm missing a quiz today but i'm covered by MC and LOA if needed. so yeah...

God help me. i'm really running on Your strength.

& i realise that amidst all my plans in my schedule, i failed to plan for the most important things of life. things that i'd drop all my activities for. things like these.

take time to slow down, don't go too fast that you miss something important. you may never get it back again.

cheers.

i cancelled all my appointments today to rest, and i'm feeling much better. sorry for cancelling on you guys! i will make it up to you, promise! (:

anyway, i'm gonna take medicine and will probably get knocked out again.

in other news, multitasking is bad for you!

http://sg.promo.yahoo.com/specialk-sg/tips-and-tools-article?blogid=tips...

i love interesting reads! (:

cheers!

how did i get this sick all of a sudden?

woke up on friday with both eyes swollen shut.. forced them open.. nose was blocked and runny, throat hurt.. but, had cgm! so i was still excited! headed down and couldn't sing properly while i played guitar cos i was stuffed up and probably sounded nasaled. anyway, sniffed throughout cgm (sorry guys, i probably was very irritating). was alright after that and went for fellowship.. den sent zi home and went home...

once i reached home, my nose acted up again.. sucked. anyway, took some pills and went to bed. woke up on sat, feeling horrible again. drank the disgusting panadol cold thingy but to no avail. didn't have time to rest cos i was supposed to book seats! reached pretty late but thank God for opening my eyes to an empty row (: was alright throughout service and during fellowship... but when i got home, it started again.

so here i am now, with a dustbin full of tissue (it was empty when i reached home) and argh. i hate this feeling. i have so many things to do tomorrow. service, steamboat, mtt, movie, dinner.. cannot afford to be sick! didn't take any medicine when i left for church cos i can't afford to be drowsy! huge NONO. hahaha.

anyway, i really hate this feeling.

God please heal me.

friends, please pray for my healing. thank you.

cheers.

not exactly feeling well right now, but i believe that i'll be better by the time i wake up! really hate being sick..

anyway, i've got a packed weekend ahead. dad wants a steamboat on sunday so gotta squeeze in time for that and make preparations tomorrow.. if you're wondering why my steamboat so early, it has no relation to CNY. my family generally doesn't celebrate CNY. my dad was just being random when he saw the steamboat thingy one day. haha.

well, jan's coming to an end, and time really flies.. feb's coming, which means exams, holidays, and my birthday. gonna turn 19... i'm really feeling the stress of being financially independent. 19's way to old to still be depending on parents. time to grow up, completely.

anyway, i really wish there was an injection for me so i'll get well instantly. we all know that won't happen.. haha.

off to bed!

cheers.